Jivan WildForgiveness
Forgiveness. A trait most of us refuse to learn. Do we want to forgive? Do we want to be forgiven?
“The willingness to forgive is a sign of spiritual and emotional maturity. It is one of the great virtues to which we all should aspire. Imagine a world filled with individuals willing both to apologize and to accept an apology. Is there any problem that could not be solved among people who possessed the humility and largeness of spirit and soul to do either — or both — when needed?”
― Gordon B. Hinckley,
I believe I lived a lie most of my life of who I was and only now have awoken to this awareness about every aspect of my being.
The person I was before was a product of this environment that we created, this environment infected by what we call society.
I grew hatred, hostility, anger and negativity and it was all attributed due to the overburden of stress that continues to eat at us everyday.
I think back on how negative I used to be and how now I turned all the negatives into positives.
I think back on how my negativity affected others as today my positiveness affect others. How that negativity creates a chain of negativity that creates all these emotions in others.
So I want to take this time, although all the people I came across in my life will not read it, I am hoping others can be inspired to find it within themselves to forgive and to be forgiven.
I apologize.
I apologize to every soul that has been negatively affected by me in some way with how I used to be.
I apologize to all those I offended because I allowed the ego get in my way as it does to everyone of us. As we allow our egos to get the best of us and how powerful it can be if we are not aware of taming the beast it becomes.
The battle with the ego is a daily struggle. I question is my ego the one who writes this. But that is not the case as I am taking the steps of deflating the ego and to ask for forgiveness-that is a big step in letting the air out of the ego.
I would love to cross paths with everyone I done wrong and apologize.
“People have to forgive. We don’t have to like them, we don’t have to be friends with them, we don’t have to send them hearts in text messages, but we have to forgive them, to overlook, to forget. Because if we don’t we are tying rocks to our feet, too much for our wings to carry!”
― C. JoyBell C.
But then again we can’t blame the ego for everything but blame ourselves for allowing ourselves to be dragged into these negative emotions as I ask why do we need to live with this hostile environment that we continue to create.
When life-this one sole life that we have is a very short life. We are here today and gone tomorrow and so are all the people that we come across.
We go on hating others for the rest of our lives, We go on not talking to each other. We go never forgiving and I come to a point of my life where I see that is no point for resentment.
We are capable of change as I am a living proof of that change.
“Forgiveness is not about forgetting. It is about letting go of another person’s throat……Forgiveness does not create a relationship. Unless people speak the truth about what they have done and change their mind and behavior, a relationship of trust is not possible. When you forgive someone you certainly release them from judgment, but without true change, no real relationship can be established………Forgiveness in no way requires that you trust the one you forgive. But should they finally confess and repent, you will discover a miracle in your own heart that allows you to reach out and begin to build between you a bridge of reconciliation………Forgiveness does not excuse anything………You may have to declare your forgiveness a hundred times the first day and the second day, but the third day will be less and each day after, until one day you will realize that you have forgiven completely. .”
― Wm. Paul Young,
I grew a stoned cold callous black heart, I grew with the ME ME ME attitude that most of us share.
But what a wonderful feeling it is to start growing love again. To chisel away the remnants of blackness that has occupied my heart for far too long.
I know not all can be forgiven. But we are all tortured souls and I believe we can all blossom into beautiful beings. I swallow my pride and forgive because I won’t die with hatred and resentment in heart.
Please forgive me for my actions and to all those who have done wrong by me. I forgive you!
I strive to be a better person than I was yesterday and I think we should all strive to better ourselves. Life is just too short. I am not perfect in any shape and form and I know I will probably offend someone with my point of views but the only difference is that I am more aware of it and could apologize faster then shrugging it off and having linger on.
Let’s grow love, let’s forgive. let’s live. By letting go we are one step in obtaining our true COSMIC FREEDOM.
