The path we choose. In this beautiful one life that we live we are confounded with choice. We are left with our mind and with our wits to make decisions and these decisions we make have a profound impact in our lives. It is the road we take in life, the path we choose that take us on a journey, for life is a wonderful journey wound by an enigma. We face the dark windy roads that could lead further down hill or to the scenic route of sunshine. Every step we take and with every thought we take, we send ripples through time., changing our very fabric of being. We exist. With sometimes must face the road of darkness in a solitary journey to find the road to happiness as we must take detours along the way in this bumpy road we call life. No one said life would be easy as life never comes with an instruction manual or a map that directs us to where we go. Life does not come with a GPS system navigating us through torrential terrain. We are the ones who direct the ship for it is our own selves who must break through walls and obstacles that get in our way and those obstacles are what makes us who we are. But we can’t let those obstacles bring us down or weigh us down as we dredge though life as those are the things that get attach to us, slowing us down from getting to where we need to be.
Now i might be rambling on, but i would not be here in this path that i choose or was redirected to my original path if i was not fired from my well paying job in NYC. I would not be here blogging, i would not have made this transformation that i have made. I would not have evolved into what i was supposed to be. Now who knows if the road i took is still the right one, there are more roads to take that will keep evolving who i am as a person, as a being, as this soul. When i was fired, i was thrown into a vortex, spinning out of control. My world as i knew it was no longer the one i was on. I was spit out and i now had to take control of my own fate and my own destination. If i was not fired, chances are i would have been on that same road going, veering towards another direction with the same concrete mentality that i had and to reiterate what the concrete mentality is, it is your mind blocked from seeing the landscape of the world, living your life in a bubble, rushing through it, with the only concern of making as much money as possible. Not living in the moment. I would have still been caught up in a world of materialism and consumerism, trying to buy happiness, only to never find it. I would have gone down another road, perhaps leading to another life than the one i am living now. The way i think now was attributed to that road i took. My experiences shaped and evolved who i am from who i was.
The ripple effect now affects everyone. From those coworkers who called me friend to the people i know now, which i would never have known if i was not on this detour in life. But who is to say if our paths would not have crossed in another time, in another road as all our paths are meant to be crossed for a reason. I admit i was an ugly person then and i still strive to improve the person that i will become tomorrow and it is all attributed to the road i chose. Suffice to say, if i was to have stayed on that same path, i would not have met all the people i had. I would have been living in this false paradigm. This illusion i woke up from. Still trying to achieve the goal of the so called American dream. Aiming for that nice big house, with the nice new car. Have kids and live happily ever after. We either face the facts the hard way though these arduous detours or we choose for ourselves on that path we take. We can either truly evolve the way we see the road on front of us and pave the way or we can go down the road with a flat tire, constantly filling it only to end flat again, as with my case until i realized that i am the one who chooses my own path and i will run over all the obstacles on front of me. and sure sometimes the universe conspires to change your fate, but it is up to you to not let it control your destination and leave your life in auto-pilot. You take control and steer it right back in course and just take the bumps and never look back and continue forward. We just become stronger from all the bumps we take and that is the goal. Never let it make you weak, never dwell for every life experience is a wrinkle in time that makes you who you are today, we just cant let us bring us down, we just get right up and keep moving forward.